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Here I am....BLOGGING

2006-08-15T11:34:00.000-07:00

Im here easing my pain, I use to write everytime I feel so alone even for a while.

Suddenly my life change...and its really painful to lose somebody who share almost all you life with. I really miss my mom, whole my life I spend with her from stepping into this world until now. It was just month ago when I was happy with her smilling and laughing with her. She almost know all of me even my wildest secret, she's been so very dear to me, my bestfriend, my shock absorber and my dearest mom. I been so down when all of a sudden she have to go. Even for just a glimpse I never figure out that she'll be gone.

Pain is drifting, I have so many question. I'm trying to be strong and somehow forgetting reality but it really knock on my door. Everytime I went home and spending time alone. I really missed my mama, I always stare at her picture and whisper everything I want to say. I have so many plans, regrets and question that still wanting to be answered.

Time will heal all wounds but I know it will took for a while to ease the pain of reality. I somehow wanna erase all the details of it, I know that mama knows everything deep inside me. I'm not questioning God's authority but I its painful to accept every inch of it.

If happiness comes in an instant, death comes as well.

I hope I can get rid of pain deep within me, I never want to put blame to anybody even myself but all I want to lessen it bit by bit.

I miss my MAMA...

LHIE

Whats new?

2006-04-05T22:31:00.001-07:00

I been through a lot... Im back at the office again after a long sick leave during my pregnancy, it was so hard, it was a high risk pregancy. My OB-gyne advised me to rest for about 3 mo. which I did for about 2 mo. but unfortunately after 2 mo. i got miscarriage. It was to annoying after a long wait, after taking care of it for about month it was just end up just like that. 2 months bedrest is so hard, I felt very bad, 6 years of waiting and it was my second time. I was very disappointed but I still hope for it soon. It was really to depressing, but everything in life has its own purpose why I have to went through all of this things. This really make me so tough, strong enough to withstand whatever trials I have in my life. Now im back with my normal life, with my work and with my hubby...

It never end up there... I was pessed of with my hubby's officemate, I was so blind to let my husband go out with this person, which really influence him doing nasty things. I felt really bad, I never realize that I am missing something, never think that it will be this worst. Like a typical husband and wife fight why should I got to undergo all this things? I know its just common in marriage but I was really hard, I hate the feeling of it, maybe its because I already felt it before. Knowing my husband I never imagine that he will got a chance to do such action unless he is being influenced by those immoral person....

I felt really bad, and I come up to a point thinking of giving up our relationship. Co'z I was emotionally disturb and I really dont want to be in the same position which I already did before the term "Nakakasawa" explains everything. I already given him the second chance, but if everything is still the same I just cant imagine life with miserable relationship, I never got a chance to have a peace of mind. I really love my Husband and I really cant imagine life without him, his my precious treasure but I just hope he can realize that....

I love you ... King

2006-01-01T21:09:00.000-08:00

HAPPY New Year!!!!!

It's been a while since I got a chance to be in my blog world....
What's new?

Huh!!! got a super bc schedule, I been to manila for our new project orientation, and I in-charge for Podebook project, at first it was very hard, familiarizing the specification, sus I was really pested-off, I was alone in the room boring, away from my hubby and just studying a bunch of xerox project specification.

And when I get home (legazpi) it was the start of my busy schedule, no more time for holidays!!!
Orientation., pressure of submission, and even coming home very late!!!!
It was really hell, but it was fun, I love my job its a heavy responsibility but I'm doign my best and exerting a lot of effort for myself and company....My mama hate it coz super busy talaga I wake up early and come home late. But I don't have a choice.
My boss choose me to be in that particular position its just happen that "trust" is given to me.
And I don't want failure comes in my way extra responsibility is like proving something....

Work is my life for now.... I been very busy but I try to make it a point that I still hav time for my HUBBY...
I Thanks him also for being so supportive being there for me and understandign every inch of my job....

My BIRTHDAY....

2005-10-10T19:49:00.000-07:00

Its my birthday im alone...my hubby is in his duty right now, mama wake me up with a kiss, my friends already greeted me...what can I ask for more atleast marami silang nkaalala sakin, I was planning to cook for them, this afternoon after work, medyo hassle I was absent sa work, I just dont feel like working today... I been thinking a lot, then I realize my life is being so busy and full of mystery, but despite of all those stressful senario that I been through I still have a lots of friends to be treasured. I know I am quite lucky enough to have them....

GEn,Jheng;ChrIS;Lou;AI;Sj;KeL;KuYa;MyBro;PrIncEss;PJ;HarLy;JaNE;SiR/Mam CeZand many to mention pa...

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Decision...

I was pessed off by my hubbys pressuring me to find a good and stable job probably his right Im not getting any younger, maybe sa Gov't daw but it's really pessing me off kasi I have gone through all those panel interviews, ranking and all but still I end up in private parin maybe its meant for me. Sometimes I dont question that buti na yong meron kysa sa wala, I love my job but Im starting to get bored maybe because that project that I am handling before is in manila already for so many reasons, not that I failed handling it but for financial chuba ng co. I just miss that project, now I dont have a choose but instead to handle what is there... basta okey lang atleast I have a good job and okey na yon....ayoko ko lng ung na pepressure ako...I like to do things in a right timing kong baga hirap yata ng feeling na super frustrated feeling ko tuloy ang boba boba ko....ayoko ng pressure.....

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I hate to say goodbye..
to a friend who is dear to me, but I should....we made our own path and I just hope you continue your journey and whatever it is just continue to be strong and do good.....Love will surely come soon....right time, right person...GOODLUCK friend.....always be here for you....muah!!!!!

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I really miss my brother who is in Cebu right now,,,, cant w8 to see him... soon!!!!

2005-09-16T17:00:00.000-07:00

"I was in a car crash thrown up like trash step once step thrice it felt so real baby what's the deal look straight to my eyes tell me all these lies. I didn't see it coming I didn't see it's happening that someday ul be leaving me hanging...Im happy you left me, Im glad that you hurt me it's a magical feeling knowing that your not meant for me..."

---it's funny how this song works for somany reason....hahaha...insultuhin ba ang EX it's really meant for those stupid ex who mess up with ur life.

-Im super busy now a days so many things to accomplish and I never got a chance to update this blog.... now m talking....

WHAT's NEW?

Nothing really ----
Work, till I drop.... but atleast I got a chance to take a rest last weekend, I end up releasing my stress with the help of MYMP vcd... it was really fun, I got a chance to bond with my friends and my hubby a lot....

Mass

2005-08-23T16:53:00.000-07:00

hassssssssshhhhhhhhh..... it's been super tagal since I have written my blog.

Anyways, what keeps me busy?

My job, deadlines to meet and so many things to be accomplished but at least no more complicated probs muna, but it was just fine, ala na nga lang time to update my journal.
I been a txt addict for almost a week for I got to stayed unlimited for almost 7 days, coz that is the only cheapest way to contact my bro in cebu by means of unlimited Text atleast I got to bond with my officemates through passing so many jokes and forwarded messages and we got to laugh at the same time, see how world evolves through text....you can be closer khit ur super layo...by all means ala naman minsan sense ang pinaguusapan but text till your celphone turns off...hehehe okey lang before I get my thumb and fingers get stroke...I got to see Mr. "check oppssss" shoutinggggg at meeee.....

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I been a PINOY BIG BROTHER addict, its a reality tv show in ABS...it was super interesting, knowing those 12 person spend their life in a BBHouse in 100days is quite interesting, they might fall in love with each other, fight, argue and even public will got a chance to know their deepest secret as in secret!!!! I wonder sensorship will comes in their way...Is there gonna be sex, flirtation and other sensored things ahead of them....I just wanna find out... It was good that I have a internet access I got to know what is really going on everyday medyo updated kasi dun...(www.pinoybigbrother.com). I watch "Asia Arcawili" hosted the PPB in studio 23. She's good in hosting medyo may kasama pang drama....

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Last sunday I go to mass with my hubby, and galing lang po me ng office nun and I was very sleepy that time but something is bothering me kasi after a weeks of not attending to mass a sudden changes really pest me off... while inside the church, I got to noticed a girl who fell off in his boyfriends arms kasi nga it's too hot dun sa area nila... then the commentator started announcing a reminder of some rules to be implemented during the mass inside the church, hahahha and after that my mind started to argue with it, my opinion seems to shout and my mouth want to argue with that, I don't know I dont have anything against them may be because it was too, unreasonable and the rules is simple as ABC but it was too senseless....

*Cross legs is not allowed, (I always do that): I always do that, what's the purpose....1 hr. ala naman connection un, unless nala mini ka ur not suppose to have your legs crossed.

*Kids are not supposed to walk and run and make pasaway inside the church.---kids yan they have tantrums, your supposed to motivate them to attend mass so why should they deprived them of doing so. I use to go to the church with my nieces, I taught them the mass and it's sacredness, the parts of it, how priest represent papa Jesus.

*In taking the communion, you have to kneel, bow, while the person infront of you is having the communion. (lets bring back the old days daw!): There supposed to have a chair to kneel kc panget tingnan...and i just notice na kunti ung nagcommunion, Ok lang iimplement siguro it's just a matter of adjustment pero, why pa ba...ang importante you receive it whole heartedly.

*After the mass kids is not allowed to approach the priest, to bless. I really hate it, kc supposed to be the priest represent Jesus Christ and yet ung joy and feelings ng mga bata everytime they approach a priest giving respect to them...grabe......di lang nila alam ung feeling ng mga bata when they got to approach "father" you know my "tata" really love that part, un ang minomotivate to sa batang un...everytime I ask him to go to mass with me. Di ka ba magbebless kay father?

Opinion ko lang po yan... I don't have anything against them esp. dun sa church were I go to... sana lang po consideration do's and don't I know somehow it's for good but...We don't have a choice....wag naman sana pong demanding...

SERMON: The priest exactly point out belief of other religious sect.to our beliefs...which is primarily the same thing that is presently happening between bro. Ely Soriano and the Iglesia ni Kristo...

Gosh!!!! Catholics are doing the same? Kasi if you watch tv...the Iglesia is arguing the same thing belief ung complikasyon ung differences which is they looks like cats and mice. Hello....lets not dealt into that....wag na natin kompitensyahin sila.
I dont question their belief...like the pope do, then be it...no more arguments...individual differences....

What is important naman is you got to stay in touch with the lord tyaka and importante naman is you trust your life with him....you believe in him and you never forget him...and give thanks to him....whatever they are apt to then it's their voice, it's their belief not ours...

Mahirap kasi maki argue about religion......kanya kanyang opinion yan....

2005-08-16T18:53:00.000-07:00

I feel sleepy, and work is quite boring for me today maybe because I was too busy yesterday. My friends and officemate went to our house and we have a small get together and bonding, it was a happy experience, we sing, videoke, eat and so many stories have been told... It was cool....

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My thoughts!

I haven't got a texted from a friend...

but Novie forwarded this message last night:

"what f u luv d wrong prson? ru gona givup or hold on? maybe u nid 2do notng, jz continue Loving...hu knows? mybe dt love may b enuf, 2make dat person d ryth."

I'm beginning to love this song for TITA_gen anelci:

Magical feeling

I was in a car crash
Thrown up like trash
Slap twice, step thrice
It felt so real
Baby what's the deal

Look straight into my eyes
You told me all these lies
I didn't see it coming
I didn't see it happening
That one day you'd be leaving me hanging
I'm happy you left me
I’m glad (i prayed) that you hurt me
It's a magical feeling
Knowing that you're not meant for me

Heavy rains poured on me
Lightning struck and hit me
Slap twice, step thrice
It felt so real
Baby what's the deal

Look straight into my eyes
You told me all these lies
I didn't see it coming
I didn't see it happening
That one day you'd be leaving me hanging

People say you're crazy
But baby don't you worry
Life has been easier without you
We should have done this earlier.

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for it simply explains reality not all person who love is happy and being love back, knowing that reality never got a chance to spare you a single moment of it, is quite ironic... hahaha...tita d ka nagiisa it's hard to fight for reality for you'll never know if he is quite good enough to fight for.

:-b

One down....One to go...

2005-08-12T17:21:00.000-07:00

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God is really good, it all happen for just a glimpse a true happiness comes in an instant, atleast I got to feel it right know....basta I saw my bro at last.... now we can breath.
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I just remember when mama told me the sermon of the priest in our barangay, the priest remind us how happy we are that our patron saint is Senor San Roque, if we just realise how lucky we are to be guided by him, he was a patron of miracle.

I really know that for I have so many things that I shared with him. My board exam, my lovelife, my problems and everything. Now that our brgy. fiesta is coming another miracle came true, one night when a "prosisyon" passed by our house I run outside to see a glimpse of him. And I outer a prayer and talk to him in my mind... Coz I am again experience a trial so I just stared at him... Yesterday it came true, 2 in 1 pa! I got a txted from my bro in cebu saying that his ok. And when I got home yesterday my older brother is there. I was very happy.... whether it is so called miracle or not I thank him for that...

Now I know it's one great day ahead of me....I just do hope it will just go with a flow.

TnX GoD!

Gay me a "break"

2005-08-11T18:30:00.000-07:00

What's NEW!!!

Gossshh, I been in night shift for almost 3days and it was just fine for Im with harly bading, ok lang di naman me inaantok with the help of Mr. Coffee, eto pressure pa rin sa work but what is important is i'm happy and I love my job!, and night shift is another period of adjustment. Temp lng un for my "arvs" is in manila so me muna toka sa shift nya. Now im back in 1shift kailangan parin i sacrifice, coz yesterday I have to extend until 2pm para mabalik sa normal ang sched ko, Okey lang kaya naman. Imagine Im still awake from 10pm-2am. Another record in my life sa data processing, in the afternoon sleeping byuti na ako...then I wake up 7pm to watch Ms. Gay sa amin lang, coz one of my PA's is joining the said contest sosyal c "macky" un and moral support lang ang drama ko. I was so excited kso grabeng ulan.parang bagyo, I waited for harly to drop by sa house but walang bading na dumating, so I watched with my mama medyo late narin...kami pero k lang "evening gown competition" na naabot namin and the candidates are very pretty. Awesome para silang mga girl....but Unfortunately di nakasama c "Macky" sa top 10, pero atleast she's one of the prettiest besides okey lang un sangkaterba pa rin n miss Gay ang meron ...di ba' better luck next tym.

--To Macky

------>Girl, Okey lang yon, byuti ka parin samin, and besides di naman sila brainy unlike you... I know u got the heart, I'm still proud of you...

------> MABUHAY ang mga BAKKKLAAA!!!!!

FaREWell 2 a GrEAt MaN

2005-08-08T13:03:00.000-07:00

Just a simple goodbye to one good man...

Proud to be a bikolano, his principles never stop him from aiming high, his true political value should be given credit. His a true filipino, a man with dignity , his beliefs never stop him from serving the filipino people. One great filipino with one great dream which is to serve his country who is deprived from him maybe because of power. I salute him in every little and big things he done to filipino people and to our country a true filipino and a proud bikolano. He is the voice of the youth and hero of the education. To RAUL ROCO, Sir!!!! I salute you....

My JAPANeSe name

2005-08-06T19:36:00.000-07:00

My Japanese Name Is...

Yutsuko Shigenoi

What's your Japanese Name?

work, work, work

2005-08-06T17:51:00.000-07:00

It's been quite a while seens I blog, and thanks God I got a chance... Weeks been quite stressful gossshhh!!!! what's new? Sunday is almost considered as ordinary day, there's no such thing as rest day...hahaha work work work!, but it's okey. But it's too painful in running out of money, too bad I haven't got a clue why? almost P100 is nothing in this world. I kindda hard time to budget with all our daily expenses it really bugging me and now our bills is my next priority this coming payday. huh!!!! It's getting worst, our economy is really bad and everything seems to be affected, almost all goods cost is getting in my nerves. Sana pwede magikin lahat!!!! kainis....

I just love this icon....Love your work....

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Can you be friend your X?

Exactly as what I wanted to be....now were texting and starting all over again as a friend, It was just so good to feel that his trying to share his past with me those things is quite important. Times really heals all wounds and no more questions ask, everyhing comes in an instant, and this is the right time to be friends again and I was very happy when I clear things up between the two of us, hahhahaha...I did it I befriended my x somehow I did my part coz ala ng hesitation and pain, panget kc ung may iniiwasan ka and sayang ng "friendship", that is very important part of it. "OK na kayo".

I definitely put things into their proper places....

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MY BRO....

Im worried of things that is happening to him, his in Cebu right now and his experiencing problems with her gf. I just wish he can handle everything. Long distance kc relationship nila which is super hard.

DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES

I been watching lately an episode of a new series "desperate housewives" and I been hooked to it, it's somehow similar to "Sex in the city" in HBO, all girl friends who seems to longing to have a perfect marriage life with their own life to run... it's somehow interesting on how they be able to handle each relatioship that they are into..A typhical and interesting series comes in every episode.

fLexy BAmBOO

2005-08-04T21:09:00.000-07:00

BAMBOO

bambooo rocks!!!!! idol ko cya ever since, it's funny when he got a chance to have a gig here in Legazpi I was sick, an allergy strikes me and it doesn't stop me from not being there...I watch, I saw him... and he was so cool super astig just like an ordinary bands playing, no hang-ups basta what you is what you get his appeal really strikes me....it was once in a lifetime kaya I enjoy the night .....BAMBOOO rocks!!!!!

dreamer

2005-08-04T20:56:00.000-07:00

I been trying to post new blog entry but I don't have time, so many deadlines and books to accomplish... anyways here I am...

My days is quite stressful, work, work, work but then I have 1 good deed this week which is to forget my pride for a while and settle things between me and my big bro. It's been quite a while since we talk, maybe because I was pest out because of his attitude and wrong doings, he is very irresponsible but what ever it is his still my brother "blood is thicker than water" as they say. After a few talk I know that he has a guilt feeling of our past confrontation. But I just forget it, for now I understand each and every little thing that passes his way, his life is so complicated that I would not want to add a few touch to that. Atleast were ok na.

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Were friends, it's good to hear that an old friend is back again, friendship is treasured for how can you able to know if it's real? Simply because of the storm that passes along the way, odds, good or bad it remains there, but there still a person whom you call friends but there are few whom u really treasure much, they are those who knew some of your deepest secret, and stand by you throught hardship and pain.

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I'm happy, my mama's first project is sold remember the hanging decor? It's good to hear that we gonna have to make a lot for there are some orders made by our neighbors I just do hope that this will be more successful. My hubby me, and my mama work for it.

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At the office I open my chikka account and MOnette reply to my chikka messages she is in dubai right now: atleast I got to know that she's okey now and she already got a job in a subway.

Here's her txt:

monet2 (7/26/05 12:57:42 AM)
ok lang ako digdi boi...nag training na ako digdi sa SUBWAY..actually parang food court siya... super layo sa computer ano... nways..miss ko na din kamo jan....

I been dreaming of a lot of things and it's just too good to hear that it's all coming true even in my dreams....

HELP...

2005-07-26T00:27:00.000-07:00

A friend relationship is seriously at risk, i haven't seen her for about days and here I am sitting right next to her. I know she has a problem but she just txted me a question regarding "how what am I going to do if my husband/boyfriend plans to have sex with his ex on his b-day". I never take that question too seriously so txt her back "i will also find my ex and do the same." she text me back that she don't have the guts to do it, but given a chance she will (joke). Hehehe
I never imagine that it was a serious question in real life until this afternoon at work that it was seriously ask by his bf. Too bad about his bf intention of doing it, kasi thinking of those things palang really means that there is something wrong with their relationship... my point is ask yourself, if that is a big deal maybe there is a certain part na medyo sablay. I won't dealt into that na. Basta friend, life is full of ups and down and you know I have gone through a lot,.Just take it as it is, never push through or exert a lot of effort, on things that are not meant to be, for in the end you might just find yourself regreting it. There is no such thing as perfect relationship, it is not as simple as ABC, sometimes it hard, happy and sad but in a long run, it is so good to find yourself happy and contented of what you deserve to have. And that is the very important part of it. Pare, LOVE begets LOVE, and it's explains everything.

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My thoughts:

Ako kc ung tipong taong, i would not hide my emotions, ako rin ung "if he can why can't I". I mean let's be practical, it's to painful lalo na sa girl experiencing ung ginagago ka samantalang ikaw your too concern sa relationship nyo while the other one is playing around, heller it's a two way process, how can you be able to have a good and serious relationship while ung isa is fooling you with his stupid action and mas worst is ung respect and trust na involve. It's an emotional investment in the end ikaw din ang magsusuffer. Let's say iparamdam mo rin sa kanya ung feeling ng mahihirapan. Let's face it, it's a common error na rin na "man are born to be polygamous by nature", kasi if that what they usually think they are not suppose to be loved, kagagahan yan na stay with them and suffer forever. I been through all of those things and your were thinking that your relationship in the end, there is another girl and sex involved, that can be once, twice, thrice and until nauntog ka and come to a point of waking up one day na iniwan ka na nya. If that was what you called "love" well, it's not, that is the highest form of "stupidity".

T-A-N-G-A ung mga girls who thinks that okey lang if they are called as no. 2 worst than a pirated cds that is bought in sidewalk stalls. In the end magunaw man ang mundo di parin mabubura ang katangahan na ginawa mo. Let's just put it this way palit kayo ng sitwasyon ikaw kaya ang gaguhin and then tell me how it feel.

I never regret of those things that happen to me, I might just regret those things na just in case na wala akong ginawa to end up those miseries. You haven't got a clue. I never expect that I was gonna experience those things so soon. I'm just 24, and It was too devastating, andyan ung low morale na ako and nawala ung self-confidence ko.But I stood up in that fight without the help of anybody, it's just so happen na pagmahal mo you have to fight for it, but coming to a point of accessment, lahat relationship, attitude, love and sex. where ka nagkulang it do help but you won't find your answer, try to face it ask them (da girl, including your partner). It's a matter of acceptance whether masakit reality really strikes me, care ko as long as I wont be thinking anymore, kainis. Okey lang atleast naggrow ung relationship namin and it a long run we still find ourselves loving each other more and it's quite different now sabi nya his afraid of losing me daw!!!

UNTIL THE NEXT STORM.... that will come in my relationship for now I love him more....

aN oLD FriEnD

2005-07-23T18:32:00.000-07:00

Nothing quite unusual sa day ko it's just a typical day and what good lang is that I heard the news about salary increase I just do hope it will be justify. Sna coz, daming finacial obligation sa house and I was hoping that I can help my mama in her project. until...
An old friend way back in college (i wonder where he get my new nos.), text me around 9:10pm., I was suprised when he tried to text me with these message:

wEN tHingS aRe d0wN & uR h0pE s gOne, rmbr me hr 2 cHeeR u rYt oN, c0z thRu d bAd tyMs weN WiNnInG s harD 2 do, il st0p my 0wn wrld juz 2 Help u PuLL ThRough..u

Hehehe knowing him sure ako may problema na naman ang taong yon I just reply to him na it's good to hear that your still there. Atleast he still got to think that I'm still here (long lost friend ang drama) why not...It just so happen na It was the end of my shift and I was so busy then kaya don't have time to reply... Besides okey na you knowing that I have a friend that still there for me.

Rainy "FRIDAY"

2005-07-22T02:33:00.000-07:00

Rainy Friday... this is the cool time to stay home loving your bed and pillow, super nakakatamad ang sarap matulog, Ano naman gagawin mo sa labas it's raining and I don't think it is the right time to go to the mall either. Hehehe... sarapppp matulog...But I need to work, it so happen that I'm in 2nd shift (2-10) ang hirap magcomute pagmaulan super nakakatamad it so happen na marami na namang mananamantalang driver like wat "czerny"(my officemate) experience kanina it so happen na special hiningi sakanya, marami na talagang driver na ganun.kainisssssssss!!!!! (May pasok na lahat but konti lang kami I don't know it's maybe because of the weather. )

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I was hook with these the tele novela "ANGEL na walang LANGIT", naalala ko kc ung kids ng bro. ko. "Pepay", lahat ng manirisms nya the way she talk grabe by all means palaban din, the way she dance kuhang kuha. I really miss her, ka text ko lng sya minsan, I always receive messages na "Tita load mo po ako". Hehehe okey lang its just happen na may celphone na cya I gave her my old cel, okey lang atleast I can easily talk to her. makulit grade 5 pa lang she has her own cel lupet...Galing din sa gadgets nun she's requesting my old phone 8210, yoko kasi it so happen na magisa sya mahirap na iba ng panahon ngayon... Galing nya sa age nya she's very responsible enough kasi big girl na cya and she's with her little bro's. Sa soap din "TATANG", looks like my papa kaya mama always watch that soap kasi super kahiwig ni papa si tatang sayang nga he cant be with us na. Nasa saudi sya...super layong saudi my bro always say na layo ni pa almost 3yrs na di man lang nagpapadala. Ibang klaseng saudi kasi yon ung tipong wlang yen. Hehehhe...

The telenovela is really good ang galing sa acting ng mga kids lalo na si "GIGI"...Childstar na childstar ang dating...

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My mama's new project:

We have this business before "hanging decor" which my papa started when I was just in highschool. It's made of yarn and with small cat figure inside a ball made of yarn.It's so happen na wala ginagawa si mama kapag nasa house so she decided to make another design similar to our past project. King help her medyo involve kasi ng masculine work esp. sa pag form ng mga wire to a small ball. I help her after my work basta at least she's busy na sa house. I just want to support her kong anong gusto nyang gawin basta ang importante sakin she's there with me and masaya sya. I can afford to lose her kahit may mag ups and downs kami. She's the best MOM.in the whole world...

a Pieces of Thoughts

2005-07-21T00:30:00.000-07:00

Its been almost 3 days of force leave, we havent recieve project load from our client, but were still here in the office hoping to have one. It so boring, without my discman it's too sleepy I already have my mouth exercise every 5 mins. it's too boring. It was cool hearing the cd that nins burn for me it was a MYMP collection of songs super nakakainlove and it's because of nina's effort, Thanks nins!

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Jheng, where is jheng, she texted me yesterday that his gonna hangout with her bf at the mall and she was pest out for eto na naman hide and seek ang drama and the same galit na naman, How I wish Xtian is there to rescue you... Toinkkkk.... joke!
Miss ko na yema/polvoron ni june...hehhe I texted her to bring me a lot of yema....sure when you taste it nakakaaddict....

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Let's talk about a friend out there...

I wonder what he's up to now?

"a friend whom somehow I trusted with my whole life but in a glimpse fade away... now his gone..."

I haven't heard of him almost 7 months I just get a glimpse of him, and I think his okey now, (huh!!!! his always okey ever since). Small place I know someday in a right time we will bump into each other and still I really don't know how I am going to react in that situation, until I'm into that particular scenario.(I haven't got a clue yet.) I know time heals all wound I just leave it to time co'z no matter how you push through a certain situation to be great, but still there's hesitation, it is just useless. I know that it won't turn out the same but I think it is the cause of all the miseries. Loosing a great friend is so devastating but if that can be a great sacrifice to make our life better then why not, being casual is better that loosing one great love.
Somehow I came to a point of finding reality and an extra challenge came to conquer my life. It was so messy then it was the moment when I need to have a tough decision between reality and dream. Knowing that it reality knocking in my door waking me up in neverneverland. But I never regret that particular point of my life. I have so many things that I realize and just the way of handling ever single of it.

Just a piece of thought, FRIENDS are clearly defined as someone whom you can be able to trust with your life, whether they may be near or far they are those who is willing to be there for you.

-lhie

Blogista

2005-07-20T00:53:00.000-07:00

A piece of artwork, exploring graphic art skill in a simple paint tools during my leisure time...

sUndAy VeNtuRe

2005-07-17T01:02:00.000-07:00

I'm in underscore, i'm chatting with a friend I decided to go online coz super boring sa haus. My hubby is at work and I sleep the whole morning and here I am writting in my blog.

After talking to an old friend, I realize that parting ways doesn't mean cutting the friendship, it still intack, establishing good relationship to other is still important whether both decided to part ways, and when the moment came that both path still cross there still a lot of things to talk about. Valueing ones friendship is important and hearing their sides is like hearing their heart. being true and good to someone is the righteous thing that a person can ever do. Coz behind those hi and hellos is a friendship that one's cherish. To you tope...goodluck in everything you wish to achieve.

Nice talking to you...

Love this font

2005-07-12T23:55:00.000-07:00

2005-07-12T23:37:00.000-07:00

It was yesterday when a life changing challenges comes in our way being to tough means enough, risking so many things can lead to better life, it just happen to me everytime coming to a point to of making a hard decision is needed considering so many reasons in dealing life. Better yet to let it's destiny decided for good. ---- Life is to short, it is good to work hard for it, decisions and actions can be a great way to change people's life and knowing what is right and wrong is better yet a great way to deal with it.Just be responsible enough for your own action ...

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Trust is important deal with it, it's really hard to win back trust.

Think before your speak; it's the other way around hurting some other people's feeling is like hurting yourself just imagine if that particular action is done to you. Then you surely know the feeling behind it.

Tolerate? Never!!!! Bad are "bad" it's the opposite of good, if you think that it's bad try to consider the action of doing good. Let him know the consequences of his own action.

Do good or "Die"

tOO EMbRAssINg

2005-07-05T21:44:00.000-07:00

My God in a middle of my English accent shortage...

I cant explain what I feel, imagine talking impromptu to our client gosshhh it's too scary... I never expect that I can have this conversation in my whole life...

I wasn't expecting it... i swear..

My boss just grab me to do his part coz his coughing is quite a distruction daw and he can not able to talk to our foreign client. Grabeee dugo ilong ko... I was too nervous and if you can just really see it my voice sounds like a cracking plates, I don't even recall any single english word I outer, my hands are shaking. Afterwards I hug jheng and I laugh, it was too awful hehhehe knowing me I'm just good in writing. I never got to practice for a while hmmp care ko.... Makauyamununun if you only see my reaction sure grabeeng ulok ni jheng a okray to the max....

Seriously, I was very nervous right there and then, when I open the door I thank God that my "sapi" English version guardian angel came to rescue me. I hate my situation. Nakakahiya somehow I never know the reaction of those who heard my spokening dollar. I just wish I could prepare my lines anyways carry ba nila?
I open my blog and write this para atlest fresh pa ang tension....

-erase-erase-erase...

-julz

CaRe Ko...

2005-07-05T04:52:00.000-07:00

2005-07-04T22:27:00.000-07:00

2005-07-04T21:07:00.000-07:00

I finally heard the "GLORIA tapes" hello graci?

After work I was watching ANC it was almost 10:30 midnight, a live telecast hearing of the playing of the gloria tapes, in congress. It was almost devastating how the vote took almost 3hrs. whether the house is in favor of the said playing of the tape. Only in the Philippines I can say that fews congressman are just concern of the topic that they argueing, some really just express their votes without hesitation for they are the congressman in the opposition, who really wants the president out. Some really don't care super call lang sa cellphone. It doesn't matter whether they are in session or what. Hay life in politics really sucks!!! ( Im'm not a pro-GMA coz honestly I never vote for her nor want to be in position either.)
But look how awful how the adminstration congressman retracted their "no" votes to "yes" knowing that they are in the side of the president is too doughtful. In a long run comments are being made and critics have already express their opinion, but for me it can be because of their present situation, they are just going with the flow politics that I believe always a "tuta" of somebody. Few of the congressman really support the president by voting "no" for the playing of the said tape but some really do play safe. So many objections so many delaying tactics but thanks to the chairmans who is very persistent in hearing the tape for they want to know the truth. Whether there is a corum, technical, verification of the autheticity of the tape and audio problems encountered along the way.

Now the playing of the TAPE...

Gloria really "KAPAL MUKS" (my opinion based from what I heard) so many calls made so many names mention, so many favors asked. Maloloka ka "hello garci" thing really too disrespectful knowing that she is the highest ranking mammal in our country why should she bother to make a call she's been quite addicted to her power.
But in a long run she admitted everything somehow it tooks really a lots of guts to accept mistakes but do you think it's a delayed reaction after the denial and everything, it's too obvious that she's afraid to lose her position. So many issues about her and her family who obviously abuses their authority.

Do you think it's enought that she apologize and accept her mistake?

And then what?

Honestly, I don't know...

If apologizing is an answer to everything she done, what is the purpose of our constitution including those bills and acts that needs to be implemented somehow useless, after ratifying they are just for the sake of records? After erap faces the impeachment chubas, if ganun lang di sana erap just apologize to the filipino then ala na. Hmmmp....it's to complicated...
If gloria will resign who's next?

Roco?, Legarda? Ping? De Castro?... Do you think they are credible enough?

---jlucero

2005-06-29T04:33:00.000-07:00

Sunday - My Rest Day

At last it's sunday, no hassle, no deadlines it's pure rest. "I love my Bed", It's kinda boring coz my hubby is at work. Funny I stayed home, sleep and watch tv the whole day. Just wish that monet is still here in Legazpi sus cgurado nasa internet cafe kami. But since my friend is in manila pa waiting for her sched for dubai. I got to bond with my pillow and bed.

LET's get SHOWBIZZZZZ....

I watch the Buzz, it's all about Diether and Tin2. The first one to be interviewed was Diether, I just saw the sincerity in every word that he outer, he admitted that they got married and still he love tin2 and no regret at all despite of the problems that they are experiencing right now. My gossshhhh, I cried he was so sincered in everything he confess and I can feel that. It's difficult to admit once mistakes and to the extent that his willing to take a risk as a public property and admitting that he never regret everything that happen is a great expression of love. I mean let's be practical sa shobiz you'll never know if plastic ang kaharap mo same in real life. Whether your out of their world same experiences lang it's how you handle such situation. Reality check kasi once you love a person honestly yon na ang importante coz un ang essence nun. Love conquers all, your fears, weakness and even your deepest insanity. Importante mahal mo and mahal ka that simple explains everything.
Love begets Love.

2005-06-21T05:25:00.000-07:00

Super serious....

2005-06-21T04:50:00.000-07:00

friends are hard to find, we have gone through a lot of memories in and outside the office,,, we got a chance to know each others charm, attitude, strength and weaknesses. They are my new found friend someone whom you can be able to trust your life and accept you for what and who you are. I hope we can still be able to treasure and continue to share each others thoughts and feelings... LOVE u guys!!!

Luck and Destiny

2005-06-17T02:44:00.000-07:00

How one's person fortune, destiny and goodluck find a way to meet in both ends. I just wonder if all of these comes in one package, coz for some it just comes once in a blue moon. I'm thinking about destiny, I know soon were gonna find our own destiny, but I hope we can still be able to treasure the memories together here in ANELCI. I know that it's coming so soon, I'm not promising anything but I'm just be here. Guys if you go, I understand I know that were going on our seperate ways, I thank you for the moment and memories that we both shared together.

Luck: June and monette won a load in a radio station promo for a certain trivia, that's what you called luck, but simply luck comes in any form, you won't even expect it. Just like the time when I won a 3315 cellphone in a certain mall promo. That was the time when I really want a brandnew cell and it happen, the feeling of excitement is there, it comes in a highest form. I just wish it can be in a daily basis.

Destiny: Who knows about it, even fortune teller never portrait an exact prediction of the future they can just give you a hint. Destiny is prerequisite with hopes and perseverence, same as luck it just come in anyform, sometimes we can't even stop comparing the destiny of others to our own destiny it's a damn wrong practices filipinos always do that, just try to look for your own and soon destiny will find you.It's how radical how life works its just a matter of knowing it's purpose.

one good day...

2005-06-14T01:32:00.000-07:00

Kainis ang life sa data processing now you see them now you don't... Monday force leave I went home early and its too bad that my hubby is sick because of the weather it's super hot... (wara lng sa arong lang ako katurog maski mainitun ok lang...pagmata mo mainit man giraray care ko lugud.) I take good care of my hubby para sweet...

Tuesday: Still no work, I check the FTP then ala pa rin I just finish my pending work then I went home early. Super text nang mag friends, there asking kong may pasok... i miss my buddies at the office (cla june, jheng, jonette, tita jen, jeff kulit and the rest of the gang), I just bought a Large teddy bear gift ng Bro ko sa jowa nya and Now Im with monette (jonette) she's checking her xanga blog as well as my site coz I have post a certain article about her in my xanga blog. (super gibo ki comment ang bruh...nauyam kang pungod nya!!! sabi ko care na...iugakan kaya ako baguhon ang pix ko) Anyways were here in a cafe and were trying the new promo P50/3hrs. (budget meal hehehe free sa ofis pero maray na digdi) I'm having a YM conversation with my cousin KEL...she's in DTI manila. Anyways super badtrip na c monette her musicfeet is not playing and GWEN is already shouting.... Anyways speaking of gwen I watch Oprah last night and its about gwen stefani who knows the famous Julia Robert is an avid fan of Gwen she was starstruck when she got to met gwen in person, I wonder superstar admire another superstar I wonder how gwen react to that... anyways gtg

Till next story telling episode...
Babush

See Me in my XANGA format: www.xanga.com/boncha

sOME faSHioNIsTA tHOuGHtS

2005-06-11T01:30:00.000-07:00

wHO saYs U cAn haVe a good FaShiOnIsta lOOks With ThOsE UK cLotHeS....

I been an UKAY2 fanatic... I use have this kind of business, it's a good business...Anyway I try to pick those branded stuff from bargain UK. Just name it sure you can find it there Abercrombie, Tommy Hilfiger, Polo, Roxy, Quicksilver, Levis, Lacoste, Victoria Secret, Piko, Mossimo, Guess, Club Monaco including branded bags and shoes just name it. Its just a matter of patience then sure you can have that unique stuff there.

I been hooked into this UK thing, for I had a bad experience before at my former office when my officemate and I wore the same shirt, as in super identical same brand, color and design. It was so embarassing it looks that we both are in uniform. hahaha...So i prefer Ukay2 clothes for it's unique style and practically cheap.

Huh!!!! wake up guys some of those rich and elite fashionista do buy UKaY clothes. With those Channel and Prada shoes who knows it came from UK. I been to CEBU and there's one street with so many UK stalls in Carbon, Cebu City near the Sto. Nino church you can grab a lots of UK bargain there. It's funny when I got to buy 1 black denim pants (bootcut) and a hooded jacket for only P5 each (hahaha), you never know what you get...imagine you can have this cool stuff as affordable as you can get. You must have an eye on good stuff. I also bought 2 prada bags, buy 1 take 1 for only P100. It was really fun and I get addicted to it. Practically I love UKaY... aside from its unique style and glamour to your fashionista choice you can have a good style and mix match everything you have from your closet even brandnew and UK clothes can be a great combination, its how your fashion statement anyway...

Extra Challenge

2005-06-08T02:05:00.000-07:00

Photo taken during our tree planting in Daraga, Albay

It was fun and thrilling I got a chance to view the famous Mt. Mayon at the top of a certain mountain situated at Bascaran Daraga, Albay. I have to walk a miles and miles and climb two mountain just to be there in the picture... Im with my classmate way back in college it was kinda fulfilling knowing that you have done and experience all the excitement with the rest of the gang... I must admit it was too scary but I manage to overcome my fear and take everthing as an "EXTRA CHALLENGE". After all it was a memorable experience....

Till the next challenge....

My wedding and My Moms wedding...

2005-06-05T17:09:00.000-07:00

My wedding...
October 16, 1999, St. Raphael Parish Church, Legazpi City

My Mama & Papa's Wedding...
St. Raphael Parish Church, Legazpi City, Albay
(A memories that treasured forever...)

2005-06-05T16:55:00.000-07:00

Haloscan commenting and trackback have been added to this blog.

My Alma Mater

2005-06-03T01:53:00.000-07:00

St. Raphael Academy;
Legazpi City

We try to get in touch with my highschool classmate last May 22,(Sat.) and we finally got a chance to refresh our memories, we decided to go to Mayon Spring Resort, almost all of my highschool friends was there we laugh and a lot of story telling...hahaha its funny when you realize that its been 9 years since you guys bonded, we have our own life, job, lovelife and experiences that makes us tough. We try to cherish the time together so many food, drinks and happy times together. Thanks to Jeff for making all those memories possible.

SRA batch 1996: (Diamond are forever: Jeff, Six, Allan, Melv's, Nest, Marlon, Drian, SJ, Zhel, Tin, Dred, Lhen, Mayet, Anne, Cherry, and Me.

2005-06-01T22:57:00.000-07:00

A cool night with the ANELCI buddies

Its been quite a while seens we got a chance to get together, we really plan these event ahead but unfortunately our Project Manager (Sir Abet) never got a chance to spend the night with us for personal reason, but still we try to make things possible for it was at the same time the end event of the Magayon festival in Landco Business Park... I was a bit excited to be with them that night. So many people and the energy is too high in the said Festival we try to find a place were everyone of us will be accomodated, so they decided to stay in TYMEZone a bar near the vicinity so that we can still be able to have a glimpse of the activities of the said festival. Its too crowded and some decided to go to the other bar, for convenience. Its quite upseting when some decided to go home instead, but I decided to stay and went to Bar 101 for most of the team was there its fun and atleast we got a chance to spenh happy times together... we dance, we laugh, we drink(not to much).

It was 2:30am when we decided to go home but still we(chris,czerny,burt,nonoy,lester,joey and me) decided to go back to the Magayon Festival to have a glimpse of the Activity there and end up...laughing for nonoy and her buddy lester (2 gays) try to cheer us with their stories and okray scenes... The nights ended with happy moments and we go home 5am. It was my first time spend the whole night with the rest of the gang...